Confessions of a "PW"
Confessions of a pastor’s wife might be shocking so proceed with caution…
Sometimes those of us in the PW position have a hard time being real. We might be tortured with pain and sadness on the inside but wouldn’t dare share it. We stuff it down and “keep on keepin on”. This leads to silent resentment, judgmental thoughts and a critical spirit. I know because I’VE.BEEN.THERE (yelling).
Scrolling through the Word I came to a screeching halt on a passage I’d prefer to avoid; involving something about hypocrisy…
I invited some girls over hoping to challenge and encourage them. I placed fa-fa teacups and saucers on the stunning table scape. I then put dirt in the cups! Yes, I did! What my girls found upon arrival was filthy teacups and saucers but nobody wanted to address it. LOL Imagine their response as I began to serve tea! One by one they quickly put up their hand signifying “no thank you”, which was the exact response I intended to receive. My plan to use dirty cups and saucers brought laughter to the room and led to further discussion on a passage from Matthew’s gospel:
“What sorrow awaits you teachers of religious law and you Pharisees. Hypocrites! For you are so careful to clean the outside of the cup and the dish, but inside you are filthy—full of greed and self-indulgence! You blind Pharisee! First wash the inside of the cup and the dish, and then the outside will become clean, too” (Matthew 23:25-26 NLT)
Why blog about it? verse 25 is where I’ve been living. Pick yourself up off the floor and hang with me. Here’s the deal: we often give the appearance that everything’s great on the outside but on the inside we feel like we’re suffocating. Been there?
Obviously it’s the Lord’s desire to cleanse our filthy innards. Here’s where we start:
Camp out in Psalm 51.
Grant HIM access to the deep secrets and broken places of your heart; it’s the hidden secrets that produce dirty external behavior.
Confess it. You won’t frighten Him, He already knows!
Celebrate - you’re a “clean cup”