Confessions of a Pastors Wife
Whoa! I've been in recovery from a crash and burn situation, one we seasoned believers would rather not talk about. Today I hold nothing back.
I've established a hate hate relationship with my indifference caused by busyness. Yet it blindsided me and sucked the life right out of me. This indifference has happened plenty of times in my thirty-some year journey as a follower of Christ. We must not allow ourselves to remain distant or we risk becoming the judgemental keeper of the law, slaughtering others with our words.
The "crash and burn" wasn't literal, none the less, it was intended to knock me for a loop in my relationship with Christ. You see the enemy desires to destroy intimacy and bring defeat but all he has planned for our destruction, God will use as a tool for awesomeness in our lives.
The question is how long do we plan on remaining knocked down? (it is our choice) How do we get it together, get up and get on with the journey He's called us to?
1-Recognize: internal misery is an obvious indication we're on a slippery slope. Since misery loves company be aware of a critical negative cynical spirit. Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8 NLT) Learn from it and move on people. Stop wallowing in your mess, wake up and embrace His grace.
2-Repentance isn't just about being remorseful over our sin but is turning away from sin and turning to Jesus. "So repent (change your mind and purpose); turn around and return [to God], that your sins may be erased (blotted out, wiped clean), that times of refreshing (of recovering from the effects of heat, of reviving with fresh air) may come from the presence of the Lord" (Acts 3:19 AMP)
3-Return: run back to Him, the place of safety in your relationship with Him. He refreshes our souls like water pouring over the dry places in the desert. Run.to.Him. Run!
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and make me willing to obey you. (Psalm 51:12 NLT)